甘瑅走后，最初的一两个月，甘棠没法接受现实。她每天回到家，都会下意识找一圈。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;gpl1x2jyfea9furbke5ianskbjp3yvnq7z≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

他像个看不见的幽灵，当她在卧室里时，他仿佛留在自己的房间，当她找遍他的房间时，他又似乎躲进洗手间。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;pqajybs7t5svrfqatrbundz0fvl61eh8u3nji≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘瑅没带走几样东西，以至于房屋陈设还保留原来的模样，桌上有些杂乱，甘棠最初想要整理，却又放弃了。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;fbfe6r45rlkzja87yudgtk0n2nixhzveiq1p≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

她不忍破坏他曾留下的痕迹。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;zgsvdahlqb1tvrqp89khfuku6yy72f0ijbj≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

只是，随着时间过去，桌上积了灰，甘棠终究还是得抹去那些痕迹。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;xdhsaytelvj1rqz2b6yg8gntine70kasr93h≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

干净整洁的桌子，不会等来弄乱它的那个人。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;vagb4ibs5hfqnj6r1gh2ndvld8atyxes7ruu≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

寂寥吗？≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;2krigntx1hekdp3yhpnqr94zbzjxlajbs8fvl≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘棠缩抱成一团，睡在他的床上。贪恋着那一点残留的气息。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;49lfu8v6xgh7jxqbkaf1tbljepz0nryaiku≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

孤独吗？≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;zyhr0jhdb8a1pfykxqfbliu7dqggnkepz≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

她不知道，一场相聚渺茫的分离，同死别有何区别。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;geifqa0pjpntg9v83l6bf2arxzevybr4lds≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘瑅抛下了她。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;qa6yxkurntaldzdb0e9hyvi3hj5471ig≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

活人的抛弃不比死人，是出于自身意志抉择，因而显得更不可原谅。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;1jptgq84n7bxsnpdev3y6ry2brvalg9jxk≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘棠因这个被一点点强化巩固的认知，对甘瑅恨意与日俱增。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;a4xg795gvpekzslrkfjvlqify3y8tb6uztxs≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

他就最好死了。她咬牙切齿地想。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;ajniryzd9xtlgnudp5e7vsbsqvkbh6xyhr4p≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

然后就梦到了他。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;r7u0jft4va9eszvn1xhfhksb5ikqxgpudz≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

少年像只猫似的被抓住封进棺材，送进暗不见光的地底洞穴。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;fq3hk68lxez1by0bghkgs7upveayvntztr≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

洞穴宽敞，两旁摆满密密麻麻的棺材。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;znsxjh2gvyxubryhvt5bgd6iea9lj8srp≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘棠急的心急火燎，顾不得害怕，自那些棺材之间寻找甘瑅，小声唤他的名字。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;l3bepzx0kyt4jzdsqrhgvikuhgdtryf5elsx≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

后来，少年就推开棺材盖，慢悠悠坐起身招呼她，“姐，我在这儿呢。”≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;t4d1zbnirvjqq386ihpyja2xzvak5ubpn≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

他的肤色苍白得近乎透明，在昏暗的洞穴里泛着淡而柔和的光。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;kx45ygnjd0rebtblshf7aezgizsylvdvt≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

迎着狂喜的甘棠，甘瑅只哀伤一笑，“姐，你来晚了，我没法离开了。”≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;l4yfu5xihkssvkb2igg73zupved0ahn6ytaf≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

“我已经死了。”≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;zgvt7d5lj1qkgrvj09azirb6xnutqupfpksy≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

怎么会这样？≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;qujhrbxegk16ad0sa49qskzxf5vp8tztbp≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘棠难以置信地看着他，少年的一颦一笑都是这么鲜活，可他却说他死了。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;aeb5nal0gfhsrh9p6gqnvd4u71xvzsxjyf2≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

她难以置信，去摸他的手，指尖触到的唯有冰冷坚硬，碰触只在一瞬，破碎，化开，散成齑粉。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;xulyjvsqeut7gi1k5dk8er3zral4pbf06q≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

她看着他一点一滴自眼前化成烟一般细的粉末，落回棺材里。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;uvquabehr9p7as1bgpqjv0kilyitnfj2ezyn5≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘棠看着自己颤得不成样子的指尖。那里正逐渐化作半透明的白，如同被点着的烟头。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;35p7tlrrxhkntz2dpvjgegxavqksae9niu≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

她心里一动，吹了一下，身体也跟着一节节化掉了。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;zlxsuehatbv615nj23gkp7zkru9qdifpny8≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

偏在这时，洞窟深处吹来一阵风，将她化成的那一把灰推得远了。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;2qiulyuxqk9efzhrbkgd15x0teda8i6s74j≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘棠悲恸地捏紧心脏，难受喘不上气来。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;tvurjdx3ghfn8ibvjlltb27r9asexihapdnk≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

她头一次发现，唯她一人的空房子，像一只巨大的棺材。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;vdbzsk4gn7pvzueailrrfh39xjj5atxqu≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

她再也忍受不了，第二天就去申请住校。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;dxpabdly179sguztie6ljt2uqbhxkjnre≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

整个高叁剩下的日子，甘棠几乎都住在学校宿舍，八人间拥挤嘈杂，偶有勾心斗角，却能让她睡个好觉。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;r7zabddjy2pqibskl05hrgsfhenxgiupn6≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

那段日子里，甘棠陷入彻底的麻木，她的日子单调，几乎不剩什么喜好，她的味觉出了问题，吃饭也成了苦修的功课。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;buj6tgz23ude5lsfreyftivkvn9apxdi≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘瑅会给她打电话，陌生的号码，来自遥远的城市，反反复复打来。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;aedzsrdy6gt3lpyhjflgxqpvkxzur1vn7i9ia≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘棠知道那是他，没有陌生人肯隔着千里迢迢，小心翼翼挑她的休息时段打骚扰电话。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;kuyrek5la6gbxes8stbfzxv1htvpzn4ypi≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

她最初不肯接电话，甚至报复性地关了机，直到做了那个梦后，又忽然释然了。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;duhu7tgtsyv6zxskjvigd1frxblqfy3j2≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

她想毕竟甘瑅还活着，活在看不见的地方，过得好好的。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;je6f3ty9dfshjpdl4xrzgurlianzbbs18vnkv≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

她一点也不想他死掉。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;a1fd9lzsynbah5xupshgp7iutqkkrrqln≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

他们又恢复联系，每周只打一次电话，因为甘棠只会在周末傍晚时开机。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;bnsexif6la1j9k35ehtgfturqdynkbpa4pyg≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

在电话里，甘棠从不提那个吻和何顾，甘瑅也不提他的家庭生活，他们小心避开雷区。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;jlhgb2xnvufrf6ph05sayqkgzund13d9≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘瑅生日的这天，央着甘棠要生日礼物。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;pdr4fzbe6sagux3herpkzlnuiqybdj5j0q≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘棠有点生气，他又不在旁边，她哪来的礼物给他。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;re9ays50a1iqie3bvzthkgvt6xhfj7xrys2u≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

后来，她被催的实在没办法了，就给甘瑅唱了一首《宝贝》。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;zavtffpikyx6zbnjxur0ks7dq12n89pbt4je≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

我的宝贝宝贝，给你一点甜甜，让你今夜都好眠。我的小鬼小鬼，逗逗你的眉眼，让你喜欢整个世界。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;1q2jk8x609vzupab54vht7fnqbdsglyipny≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘棠唱歌时带怯，声音比平时还要轻软些，甘瑅听完沉默了一会，“姐，我刚才忘了录音了，要不，你——”≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;uvj6e2gxeiqzauvn5xdki7j3aqysbdk4rps≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

“……想都别想！”甘棠气急败坏。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;5glsqitxtehk8p1qjrv046dj7b9hnyadkv≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

电话另一端，甘瑅似乎是笑了。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;kxteeuy4fjhx1p3augbda9v7yvg8qj5qk2fznh≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

“姐，要是能边放烟花边听你唱就好了。”≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;95pzievty14khl7djkfega6nfpa2hzujr8v≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘棠冷哼道，“都怪你当时非要说出来，愿望说出来就不灵了。”≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;lqsjhkpy6j1xblfrua0idvxt7hsngt8qg5iy≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘瑅声音轻柔地附和，“嗯，怪我。”≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;4av0bg23iuifvtfhx9sqryjzurl8l5nh1≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

他的态度太过顺从，反而让甘棠不知道说什么好。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;v8ebzpnvxfxritktg1k6s3ulqljanp4qfa≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘棠知道，这不过是迁怒罢了。因为那天，她后来还悄悄补了一个愿望。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;2aq9f0ganjbiddpl3ivxze5zh1qs7p8r6xtv≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

她希望自己能够离开这里，去很远很远的地方。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;efvqb9ijx23unzkfqs6vljegkat8ayzlsh0x≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

结果他去了远方，她留下来独自放烟花。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;8pti62stxhinaq1vsn7ru3kqxzvffdladj9g≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

多么讽刺。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;vujgidu6ei4hy1laf7k9rqkpst5bbd02x≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘棠按下免提键，“你那不能放烟花爆竹，我就勉为其难给你听个响吧。”≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;yhb2rdep89k37rfzibzxssgviqdl6jagpae≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

“你一个人在坝上？”甘瑅的反应与预想不同，“你一个小姑娘晚上还去那么偏的地方，知不知道什么叫危险？”≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;1ypvgn3fxk0lh6ddsibgyh79vs4kjftneitlz≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘棠把手机移远，“我一个人跑坝上干嘛，我就在咱家楼下。”≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;ak482np63fd9ak0ibvjfuxrsgvlqqrul1≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

而且，什么叫“一个小姑娘”，说的好像他自己有多老成似的。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;5rtlqnzxjbhf8tbisvdseglp9hv1zrqfka≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

又过两天，甘棠收到一件的包裹。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;2qugxjfbis841fnj7hnlirevqze0tdk3usz≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

那是个头戴耳机，来自那个很远很远的城市。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;8frguvdt6zah3qyfxbnvygkzplurtx5e1sj≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

这是来自甘瑅的生日礼物。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;j4pnj1lz2uaydu5bbyarkqtgfi0pknh6lt≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘棠顿时觉得自己唱的那首歌有点寒酸。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;dtvsa6zhhnysqqauyvtjbp2i3eg5lndk8ru≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

杭菀菀对高一的一个打篮球小子一见钟情，拉甘棠一块去看球。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;pbydj6yhxrtrjdut1lkn3nfvlk2hzfe4xa≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

“就是那个，怎么样，帅不帅？”≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;ip4zshkrtvj1yvdlq26nhkxeayjaq8tf9≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘棠莫名地看着球场上流着汗的一群男生，她觉得这些人都长得差不多，尤其跑跳起来时，脸都看不清，很难界定这个就比那个帅些，倘若因某个人打球的英姿爱上他，在她看来那感情跟抓阄也差不多。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;hzped1ausah9dl2kqyrx7ltrft8snvpn4zq≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

杭菀菀叹了口气，“跟你说不通。喜欢是一瞬间的怦然心动，往后，你再看那个人就算站人群里也跟打了光一样，世界上任何人都比不得他耀眼。”≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;0j7sgkndh2ra5kzyunz9hqxtpevjybpqald≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘棠觉得假如真有“怦然心动”这码事，那应该跟诅咒差不多。只用一瞬就能爱上，却要搭上长久的时间与精力与对方纠葛。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;atgly5i1ihrsqvzj8fe9btpdhvguru7daq≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

她不看好杭菀菀这段感情，又不好直说，只委婉道，“他才高一。”≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;eugya0bkdzujv28zhsl1t4vkein6jx5sxftn≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

“何顾也才高二。”≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;9xipnbp5iltjfhlrbuz10yka74jgrtvg8nse≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘棠不知道话题怎么就到了何顾身上。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;13nev40ktkqn2brzbdgutxih5yiapr67d≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

“我跟他不是那种关系。”≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;yv3kn2akd8brxnyzus9h1hs47ipfjub6dte≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

杭菀菀笑嘻嘻道，“我觉得他对你有意思。”≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;jezkair72jfht8pyhtneqluxgu93r5px4s≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

何顾会在每周二和周五下午自习前的课间来找甘棠，把她送出校门口。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;qygd8auhbifjlpasj3xr1vkztxqsfzyn0et42kr≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

头两次去医院还是他陪着去的，甘棠觉得过意不去，后来就只让何顾送到校门口，也当接受他监督了。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;bhxrakgftxuqz1d0ni9ivj2prseyd63afz4l≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

异性，又跨年级，何顾每次来找她时都很惹眼。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;3bxidxlygrfjvk7eakystsq9u2t65fau8jp4b≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘棠对何顾感激愧疚多于好感，面对他时，亏欠感太过强烈，反而盖过其他。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;yzekf5z9jp4ab26tviu1dsqlhdgx7gjuan≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

“我不喜欢何顾。”≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;zqsxlbnh0rr9jisd8pnlfxbvzgfyaevt2k≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

她这样说着，恍惚间却想到甘瑅。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;ariaxdendy4sq27qlzx3zuj0bkvfu6f1nj≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

她觉得甘瑅抛下的那句话相当恶意，哪怕只是想到是否喜欢何顾的话题，她都会忍不住想到甘瑅，甘瑅那天说过的话，甘瑅那天做过的事。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;kagnbixs0ztlpzrf5pqbdil7gkrheuuvf≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

还有那个吻。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;nr4v9ijfsuqlagi73uby6qtxrdptx2sy1e≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘棠忽拉住杭菀菀，恍惚道，“假如我要你不许喜欢朱志铭，并且强吻你，你就能不喜欢他吗？”≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;kdr35yj9haxt4ebktxuhi7qf8pvgznplv1≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

她的确不希望杭菀菀喜欢上一个高一小屁孩，或许这法子能给杭菀菀用用。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;4eplfkslbdqtpzehd8zig2nqj59s3bxv6≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

杭菀菀表情呆滞了，“别，那样我只会怀疑你暗恋我，你你你别这么看我，死心吧，我是不会喜欢女人的，你真来这套我就跟你……绝交！”≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;bfitd0svjtnsz5vkp87egynlbhdqhjgekf≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘棠淡淡哦了一声，脸上不见被拒绝的失落，反倒生出困惑。她隐约觉得哪里不对。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;dh2k3j6itspbe97afqiylt8lagz4hqdxjsvv≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;

甘瑅不该吻她的，她也应该更生气的。≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;q2d1lbiukxrnbp85ghe7qe4taxuirpv9zsl≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;≈lt;blkqute ite='<a href=&qut;https://.p18.t/&qut;≈qut; target=&qut;_blank&qut;>https://.p18.t/'</a> lass=&qut;pyright&qut; style='bakgrund:#fff; brder-left:5px slid #4a84e; padding:20px 50px;'≈gt;yvrexsx4bg8thi7labj9ry5un6s1gealpfq≈lt;/blkqute≈gt;